Beyond Awareness

In this work, we are working with habits built up over a lifetime, and so ingrained, that we identify ourselves totally with them. They are an integral part of our identity - of the way we experience ourselves every instant. As far as we are concerned, they are us. This experience is not intellectual or mental; it goes far deeper than that, and for that reason, is not available to our conscious mind.
The habits I'm talking about are not what we usually think of as habits - whether they be actions (such as drinking tea every morning) or mannerisms ( such as tapping our feet on the floor when we sit).
These are very deep, inner habits of the muscular system and are involved in the simplest actions of daily life - standing, sitting, reaching out for something, speaking, listening.
For instance, as you sit there reading this post, your muscular system is working in a particular way that is uniquely yours, to hold you balanced in your chair. It works in a different way to support you when you reach out for something, when you read or write, when you get out of the chair.
The fact is that in most people, the muscular system works by shortening and tightening, so that too much effort is expended for even the simplest non-action, like just sitting still.
We need to reach down this deep, to a level which we are not otherwise aware of, and cannot otherwise control, to access the working of our self, to allow it to unravel, and to let a different way of working to establish itself.